2 years ago today.........

In a chaotic rush - heads spinning, eyes watering and hearts overfull.... my dream of being a Mom came beautifully true. As we entered the building and spied our little girl - overcome with emotion I even forgot to pull out my camera, and gazed upon the face that I now know so well as my own - I realized this HAD to be where I was meant to be. All the long years... all leading to one fateful day in a crowded room in a faraway land... with people who were little more than strangers.. that are now as dear to me as family..... knowing that thousands of miles away more loved ones waited in eager anticipation for the knowledge that our journey was ending in happiness... and so it did.

It has occurred to me that in this waiting phase now - for our son, that the miracle of that moment and its lasting gift to me that occasionally a leap of faith is rewarded a thousand-fold, that may be the reason there is no panic now, no anxiousness only great hope and anticipation that this leap of faith will also be rewarded with that brief glimpse of the universe.

In the myriad matters that make up a life.. family, work, etc. it is too easy to forget the blessings and the miracles that have been markers... I am glad that in addition to other reminders.. that for the rest of my life I will pause on certain days to recall the decision and journey that has profoundly shaped my life. From the friends - I would most certainly not have - who waited and cried and hugged and shared and danced and who hold my hand even now as we wait for our second miracle... to the children I am so fortunate to call my own - one who sleeps nearby and one who soon will..... to the thoughts that drift into the future of what My being THEIR mother will mean to them.... when I know it has already meant everything to me. We are lucky those of us who have chosen this 'second way' we are lucky and so blessed to be called their family... to have each other but especially OUR children who give us so much more than we could have imagined...