Wednesday, February 21, 2007

One Year Ago Today.... (Part III of a Multipart Series)

First site of EFP with Nanny

February 20, 2007 - One year to the day!
Happy Forever Family Day my Little Love!!

One BIG year ago today – the center of my universe changed. I went from being consumed by the adoption of a child to the MOTHER of THIS CHILD! It was and is the best day of my life save, perhaps, the day I married my DH. In true Snoopy fashion here goes!

It was a dark and stormy day.. No, it really was. The weather was terrible in NanChang the provincial capital of JiangXi in the People’s Republic of China. But we braved the vertical rain and 30 degree weather to reach the Civil Affairs Office for our first site of EFP. Suddenly – there she was sitting in the lap of one of the Nannies. She looked exactly the same as her referral picture and so healthy – rosy cheeks (from the 10 layers of clothes she was wearing) and bright eyes. I recognized her immediately and started to cry – when I realized I should not cry I should take pictures. I did.

I can’t really describe the moment when they called our name and after checking our passports, handed our baby to us. OUR BABY! After all those months and months of agonizing doubt and self criticism. Feeling guilty for past mistakes or different choices and what did it matter in that moment – not a bit. EFP looked up at me, patted my face, smiled and then pushed her 19.5 lbs self onto me and snuggled right. I wanted to kiss and hug her…run away from the office and have her all to myself to tell her all the things I had saved up to tell my daughter.... but I settled for dangling the (magic!) plastic keys in front of her and she busied herself ripping my name tag to shreds. We were quickly all holding babies and cameras and juggling things mightily when it was time to get back on the bus again. I think we had returned to our hotel room and then went for lunch where I FINALLY got to feed a baby (MY BABY!) a meal of sorts. Back in our room I uncovered her many layers a little at a time to expose one limb at a time and checked her all out. Perfect right down to the large blue spot on her upper buttock! It was not long before we were hanging and laughing with our silly baby and it was clear that she was fine with us. We returned to the Civil Affairs office and completed the paperwork and just like that (HA!) we were parents to one beautiful healthy happy baby girl!

These last 12 months have been incredible. How do you explain such an utter transformation? I can only say that all the months of being tired, anxious, afraid and sort of being dazed, I am happy to say not only do I still think that we got the best baby ever – I know we did! I know that we have never regretted for one second our decision to adopt from China and that February 20th is my favorite day – because it is the day I was made into EFP’s Mommy. Every day I wake up thankful that this day came and today I am especially grateful that she is my daughter. We spent this last weekend with our travel group and I suspect that similar thoughts are racing through those parents’ heads as well. We are all convinced we were somehow given the best baby. (But I really was!) We are all who we are today because sometime ago we made the decision to take a leap of faith and put our hopes and dreams into the hands of some civil servants in a far away land. Thank you – whoever you all are. Thank you! We are so blessed by this little girl and her little China-Cousins. My heart is just overflowing with love for my family and for our friends all around us celebrating our families.

One year ago – my entire universe changed and now a nearly two-year old baby girl rules my heart and my home. Thank God!


Michele said...

Happy Fovever Family Day, my friend. It has been a blast travelling this journey alongside you. There is nothing like it.....nothing in the world. Becoming a Mama has been the best decision I have ever made and I know you feel the same.

love, Michele, Emily and Alyssa

MKBookWorks said...

eckwlAh - My friend the pleasure has beeen all mine!! Thank you! It;e been a blessing for her sake - but also for the friends (now family!) that were a great part of our particular journey! Wouldn't trade it, her or YOU for anything!


Beckyb said...

She was, and still is, a DOLL!!! What blessings we have been given - I totally agree!!!

Terri said...

What a cutie! Shes all smiles! I want to pass this on to you as a mom...If you are looking for some really cute baby clothes you have to see what they have over at The Flowers by Zoe line has really cute girls clothes for spring!

Steffie B. said...

OMW......just found your blog off of the DTC group for March. The minute I saw EFP in that orange outfit, I new I had seen her before. Did you post on The Story of You?????? Either that, or someone in your group did, because I remember that outfit! Also, Beckyb below.....we traveled together. I'm looking forward to getting to know you through this next LONG journey!
Best wishes,

Red Thread to my Daughter said...

I loved that little story. There are many days that I have thought "am I doing the right thing?, can I wait that long for my daughter?, and after reading I know it is YES. As you know I am just beginning my wait LID 2/9/07, and although I have 2 wonderful chldren already, I am anxious and excited to be a mom again.


Kimber said...

This is beautiful! Happy Forever Family Anniversary. Our daughter is also from Jiangxi and we are awaiting travel approval anyday now. I hope our Kate Emerson is as beautiful and loving as EFP. EFP is gorgeous!!!! I have enjoyed reading your blog. Best of luck with your next adoption.


Anonymous said...

What beautiful pictures!!!
Thank you so much for sharing that wonderful memory with the rest of us!!!

(My oldest is from JiangXi,, I am rather partial to that province, myself!)

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